What am I living for?

This is really a hard question for me. Though I am 31, I haven’t made it clear what am I living for. This brings me too much anxiety. Lacking goals makes me a person who can’t stick to do things. Sometimes I feel extremely confused because I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what is the right thing for me at this moment.

I have a job which is not bad, it can support my daily life. I also have a house, thanks to the fact that I bought it early enough, now the loan doesn’t cost me too much. So I don’t have a lot of financial pressure.

I am not a person with too much ambition(Sometimes I will also have some thoughts to do something, but it is not necessary for me). At the beginning of work, the pressure and fear of losing work drove me working hard, at that time, I really worked very, very hard. No entertainment, no relaxing, just working, working, and working. I have gained a fast improvement at that stage.

But when the pressure from the outside environment is not too much, I will drop into lazy. Sometimes I came up with a thought and had the ambition to finish it, but when time passed, my ambition became less and less, then finally I gave up it and got nothing done at all. My confidence was burning out in the process of it.

I have had many goals before, but these were not what I really want to do. They were existed just because of my fear of losing some things. They were not my real goals.

What will be my real goals?

At the end of my life, who would I be?

These are the most important questions for life, and I haven’t gotten the answer yet.

So I could only tell myself: Keep thinking, keep trying, keep moving!

I believe that if I don’t stop, I will get the answers one day.